hope is a waking dream

2009-10-30T05:07:00.002+08:00

NEW SPACE !
relink me.
:))

haaaaaachoooooo@blogspot

see you there !

2009-10-19T04:24:00.008+08:00

just woke up from my sleep.

and i'm having difficulties to get back to sleep.
and in a few hours' time,
polytechnic-going students are back to school while
i'm working.
and shit,i hate to have this feeling of failure in life.it's been some time since i pen my feelings in this little space.
am still trying to find a solution to upload my pictures and such.
hurhurhur
and oh anyways,
something very random.
but i was traveling alone from home to esplanade
to boon lay and back to home earlier just now.
cause apparently,my plan to surprise the boy at work got backfired.
and he went back home and slept through.
and some time after i reached back home,this boy was at my void deck.
-.-and last few days,i got to find out some things that i shouldn't be even mentioning.
but it hit on me that i've overlooked on certain things.
i thought they are the better ones,
but they proved to be the rotten ones.
i hate this feeling of being used in a certain way.
please god,show me the light.
i may not be good with feelings
but i hope it's gonna be something strong with you.
it's been some time since i broke some rules of my own.
it sure feels different with you but i can't say much for now.
but i just wish i could keep you for long.

till then ;

2009-09-26T22:32:00.003+08:00

this is random.
but this 'cari jodoh' song really got me hooked.
blame my parents for introducing it to me&brothers.
:))

anyways,my dark circles are getting worse.
been lacking of sleep recently.
but in any case,i've been having quality time with people close to my heart.
from hard rock to midnight movies to east coast park to bonding moments.
and thursday night was really random but i enjoyed it while it lasted.
and at last,me&bacins got it.
though it doesn't make me feel how i should be feeling,
i'm still loving it.
:DDD

till then ;

2009-09-22T12:32:00.009+08:00

time check : 12.32pm

just kinda woke up.
initially,wanted to go tanning.
but was on the bed when i hear the heavy rain outside.
hurhurhur
oh anyways,
to all malay muslims,
selamat hari raya to you guys horrr !
:)
my first two days of raya was ok-ok bahs.
there was definitely tension around the house
but i guess everyone seems to just ignore it.
somehow,i miss the old us.
like always having family gatherings,chalets&such.
what to do..
things change,
people change too.
on a random note,
i kept smiling thinking what had happened yester-night.
the boy was texting me while i was at work saying
he's staying at home lahh,
sleep lahh,
what lahh.

but while i was in the train,on my way back home,
got a call from him.
sounding rather frantic,
he said he was at my workplace.
cause initially,this boy wanted to surprise me.
feeling-feeling mahh.
but heh,plan got backfired horrr.
cause i ended work early bahs.
so very the cute lohh.
:))
and so,we went to watch kumar.
wuhhlalala !
those transvestites dancing were really smoking hot lohh !
kalah wanita asli like that lohh !
and hands down,kumar is freaking hilarious !
freaking freaking hilarious lohh !
the lap dancing part was the killer sia.
sexayyy !
:DDD

i shall do a proper update pretty soon.
that's if i'm not too lazy bahs.
&&& my freaking laptop's space storage
is getting smaller by the minute.
thanks to all my pictures.
hurhurhur
anyways,take care y'all !
&&& selamat hari raya again.
:DDDDD

till then ;

2009-09-16T01:18:00.048+08:00

it has been some time since i last blogged.

pretty lazy to update my mundane life.

nothing's new righttttt ?

hari raya is just around the corner.

but please slap me.

cause i'm not feeling it lohhh.

like do you ?

i bet many are not feeling it this year.

boringggg.

and a random note,

i hate possessive guys.

guys who think they have the whole of M.E.

seriously,move along dude.

oh anyways,i guess it's not something i'm proud of.

but my application for temasek poly's october intake was unsuccessful.

and i've yet to tell mother.

i need to sort out what i need/should do before having the guts to tell her.

as the eldest,i think i've failed to be a role model for my two younger brothers.

but i think life has to go on.

whether i like it or not.

and thambi boy said to me that he would meet me once i knew of my results.

whether it's something positive or not.

and to think he went all the way from the west to the east

just to fetch me from tuition on a monday night,

was somewhat irritating-ly sweet.

such a surprise lohh !

and so,we went to chill-a-ling at some bedok area.

and went back home thereafter.

:))

13 September 2009

such a coincidence that he had soccer at a school just beside my tuition's place.

macam fahamsss only horrr.

and so,after tuition,

break fast at tanter's place with one of my uncles' family too.

after breaking fast,met thambi boy and headed back to hougang.

want to feeling chill at hougang but yeahhh.

boring place huhhhh.

and so,we headed to mustafa.

very randomssss but yeahhhh.

hah !

place was super duper crowded lohh !

aiyee !

and we had supper before heading back home.

teh tarik,like again.

till then ;

12 September 2009

worked.

headed back home and went out again at about 9pm.

thambi boy booked tickets for 'the time traveller's wife' show.

and so,to kill time,we walked around.

got a tub of ben&jerry's ice cream and just sat along meritus mandarin.

what is more nicer than just to people watch while eating ice cream ?

:))

storyline was rather confusing.

like seriously lohh !

after movie,went to have some teh tarik at kopitiam before heading back home.
reached back home at about 3plus and headed for the sack.

too tired ahhh.

:))

till then ;

10 September 2009

off-ed.

but was really,really,really lazy to move my butt around.

like seriously lohh !

even if people were to really go to hougang to meet me,

i would not want to bathe and go out.

cause i'm lazy like that.

till then ;

9 September 2009

went to tan alone.

rather weird but made a tanning friend,no ?

hah !

so much of mr gohhh horrr.

you know i know ahh thambi.

:))

met thambi boy at town.

break fast and went to slack at starbucks.

since my laptop was down for quite some time,

he brought along his laptop and i was literally LOL-ing,

watching the kumar show on youtube.

my oh myyy !

called the bacins at 11pm.

and hearing her so-not-sexy-i-just-woke-up voice,

i knew that she slept through.

cause initially,wanted to head to zouk but yeahhh.

gundu lohh this girl !

but still,i love her.

i know you love me too.

right,dog ?

and it was pretty weird to know someone knew of it.

i guess it's somewhat too early but i think i'm over that.

hurhurhur

till then ;

7 September 2009

and at last,i got my hair dyed.

it's kinda weird to see the change in my hair colour.

sometimes,i feel i look like either minah-ish or ah lian-ish.

but i'm trying to get used to it bahs.

but it kinda sucks when it comes to wardrobe.

not much of being girly now.

like maxi dresses are quite a no-no for now.

hurhurhur

after doing my hair,

met the bacins at town.

slacked bo slacked.

:))

trying in vain to find shoes for raya.

but nothing that really attracts us.

till then ;

5 September 2009

it was a tiring day indeed !

we shopped till we dropped.

literally lohhh !

but i likeeee !

till then ;

this was one of the slackerooonieeee days.

just headed to town,again.

and slacked.

we seriously need to head somewhere newwwww !

right,dog ?

till then ;

2009-09-03T15:10:00.000+08:00

&&& this is noted to be a 'pictures heavy post'.
if you have anything against pictures posted,
you are obliged to leave.
thank you.
:))

i've not been doing proper updates for my blog bahs.
and so it is,i'm going to vomit all the pictures&rants.
enjoy !

met dearest for some catch-up session.
it has been long since we met.
far at sight,
close at heart.
:)))

28 August 2009

headed to plaza singapura.
went to geylang.
and back to town to meet akmal&abid.

and we both are always clueless about buses&their directions.
so confusing lohh !
so much of singapore post ahhh !
hurhurhur
but it was really fun that we blasted our mp3s
and well,
made a fool of ourselves ?
:)))

headed to zouk for mambo jambo.
very weird for us but it was a nice first experience indeed.
and that girl is loving the music liao.
hurhurhur

it's nice that we can dance silly without even caring about others.
cause others are dancing silly too.
cute !
:)

had desserts at slice far east plaza before i headed for work.
nice nice niceeee !
:))

till then ;

2009-09-03T15:01:00.000+08:00

15 August 2009

went to town with zaffy.
went to do a little shopping.

on a random note,
we've tried playing the situation in our minds.
what ifs.
and it really happened.
though i didn't expect things to be normal.
it was rather weird to see that kind of reaction.
oh wells,frenemies huh ?
:)

17 August 2009

headed to arab street with colleagues.
initial plan was to head to sentosa.
got dress code somemore.
but since we didn't feel the beachy vibes in us,
we headed to arab street bahs.
went to 'going om' and slacked bo slacked.
it was really funnehh that someone who never played monopoly
before can come out as the winner of the game.
first timers' luck i guess yeahhh.
wooots !
in all,it was really fun and i had a great company.
:))

19 August 2009

was at home,
waiting my tuition kid,
when they called me.
and so,once my tuition session ended,
headed to town to meet the rest.

zaffy came to vivo to pass me things
and accompany me for some 'awfully chocolate' ice cream.
hmmmm,i likeee !

till then ;

2009-09-03T14:50:00.000+08:00

10 August 2009

BIRTHDAY SHOUT OUT TO
DEAREST FATHER !
long live and may you be blessed with good health.
:)))

since my family had no plans of going out,
me&zaffy went to have our mini holiday at a hotel.
:)))

once we were in,
goshhh !
you should see what we did.
we jumped around and kept laughing.
like little girls who just got their princess dresses.
cause we are soooo in love with the place liao lohh !

pictures are abit over-the-top but oh wells,
like it's not normal to see this over&over again.
we slacked bo slacked,
played dress-up,
and just have our girly moments together.
i likeee !
:DDD

7 August 2009

went to run some errands at town with zaffy.
then,we separated ways as i'm sooo late to meet lynn&afah.
it's been long since we girls met bahs.
:))
i did have a jolly good time with them bahs.
we slacked at town till about 2am.
and headed back to lynn's place to sleepover.
ate durians that the boys bought.
and seriously,i was feeling so lethargic lohh !
aiyohhh !
slept at around 5plus bahs.
:))

5 August 2009

had a very last minute plan to go clubbing with the boy.
fetched me and reached powerhouse at about 1plus.
crowd was rather boring but i had fun bahs.
in all,it was a great night with bittersweet memories.
and sometimes i wonder,
if tonight never did exist,
will things be the same as it used to be ?
hmmmmm..

till then ;

2009-09-03T14:43:00.000+08:00

2 August 2009

flea flea flea !
:)

1 August 2009

headed to town.
slacked bo slacked and took NR back
to pasir ris to sleepover at tanter's place.

slept for abit and woke up back at 5am to head to downtown to have breakfast.
with our oh-so-bacin faces,
goshhh !
:)))

30 July 2009

headed to ikea tampines.
we are both sad people ahhh.
cause we don't get to eat our favourite daim cake.
hurhurhur
but oh wells,eating at ikea is syiok syiok lohhh !
:)))

headed back to tanter's place to sort our items.
it was rather last minute but we managed
to minimize our items to the fullest bahs.

and below are pictures i went to sentosa with the biatch
and headed to town to meet zaffy,fee&kamal.
i can't remember when was it.
but i knew it was on a monday and that it was a rainy one.
cilaka betul !

the very day we feeling feeling stripey sisters.
went to ikea queensway.
then,i went to town to meet the biatch and a short meet-up with the boy bahs.
hurhurhur

till then ;

2009-09-02T20:13:00.004+08:00

have been listening to raya songs on repeat since yesterday.
but i feel neutral towards it.
i can't feel what i think i should be feeling.
and i have doubts this year will be the same.
many things have happened and changed how we see things now.
in just a short span of one year.

2009-09-02T09:12:00.004+08:00

CAM WHORE CAM WHORE CAM WHORE

time check : 8.30am

didn't sleep a wink since yesterday night.
and now,i'm having headache.
can see from my face lohh !
so bacin and stionk stoink oneee horr.
goooood !

a bisexual here (:
i am a FHM models and you ? want chat at msn ? if you did like to perform for me on your webcam (:

seriously not needed lohhh !
i'm downright straight lohhh.
aiyohhh aiyohhh aiyohhh !
apa mau jadi ?
:)))

&&&& seriously,i need/must lose my baby fats !
but i give up before i can even start.
and mother said that i'm one who gives up easily.
cause i usually mention of death when i see no hope in something.
but oh wells,i'm stronger than this.
:DDD

happy breaking fast later people !
and talking about this,i've yet to 'restart' my fasting
since i'm done with my period last week.
even mother can't be bothered
and excludes me from the pre-dawn meal.
sooon lahhh ehhh.
:P

till then ;

2009-09-02T01:35:00.000+08:00

if you ever touch me again,
i swear you see me no more.
i was raging with anger just now that i can't think straight.
how could you ?

good thing i had someone to entertain me
while i was at the park just now.
it was nice to hear someone's laughter.
it just makes me happy.

till then ;

2009-08-31T04:33:00.007+08:00

UPDATED !
timsybaby@lj
timsybaby@lj
timsybaby@lj

2009-08-22T02:38:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 13TH BIRTHDAY,BRO !
i know you are feeling very rebellious now at this age.
but please,we love you and want the best of you.
happy birthday and we shall celebrate it later.
:))

looking at my family sleeping soundly,
i'm feeling very envious.
cause each time i try to get myself into bed,
i'm thinking about 'awfully chocolate' ice cream.
how to sleeep like thissss !
have been craving for it for days lehh !
can someone pleasssee get me some ?
:DDDD

2009-08-20T23:35:00.003+08:00

the sudden reappearance left me feeling rather quesy.

but what i've realized is that we've both grown up.

definitely.

most of the times,

i'm rather strong hearted and very stubborn.

but if given the situation,

i can be very weak.

if you have done something about it,

you could have easily earn the trust&respect back.

but it's too late now.

and moreover,

i think we both have definitely have a change of heart.

till we meet again.

leave me alone.

cause i'm tired of starting something new.

2009-08-10T23:52:00.010+08:00

WHAT DO YOU GET WHEN YOU HAVE
A BORED & LONELY GIRL ???
.
..
...
....
.....
......

A NEW HAIR-DO YAWWW !
HEHEHEHEHHEHEE !
:)))

but somehow,i'm sure to regret it sooonnehhh !
but hell,there's always my extensions what ahhh !
like you don't know like that.
fake only lohh !
:))

p.s i think it looks abit like apple right ?
hurhur

till then ;

2009-08-09T19:07:00.011+08:00

tuition-ed.
and after about 2 hours of walking alone around ikea&giant(tampines),
i finally got myself a new computer table,
chocolates,
&&
more chocolates !!
:))

i look like some maniac i tell you.
carrying that thingy around,
taking bus back home.
i didn't brought along my atm card.
if not,i would buy quilt,quilt cover,pillows
and candles.
:((

shall make a trip there again sooonehh !
&& i didn't get the chance to grab daim cake.
the place was damn crowded lohh !!
hurhurhur

&&& there it was,
i'm finally done with it !
just the part with the keypad thingy.
shall wait for father to get back home.
it's just like something i've got before.
but since i want to get rid of my current computer&computer table,
i get myself something that's not as bulky.

i'm distracting myself to things that i've not thought of doing.
am de-cluttering my room for goooood !
&&& i've got some other things up on my list.
cause it hurts when you not only lose one,
but two special people in your life.
but in any case,i'm doing good on my own.
cause i'm an independent womannnn whatttss !
hah !
like macam faham horrr.
:)))

ohh anyways,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE !
:DDD

till then ;

2009-08-09T04:11:00.001+08:00

something has gone totally wrong.
sometimes,it just don't make sense to me anymore.
the word i've used may have stirred some emotions.
i hate that i've made you felt that way.
but i'm here to apologize.
&&& am going to disappear from your life.
thanks for everything.
but i'm not worthy of your kindness.

i think i need help.
i no longer know myself anymore.
for a minute,i'm good.
and the next minute,i'm not.
having negatives thoughts,breaking down&all.
it's scary but i'm trying to live if off.
how i wish i was the way i am back then.
though i know nobody and nobody knows me,
i live simply.
just innocent.

i shall have lesser social interactions.
cause i need a lot of me time.

till then ;

2009-08-08T21:36:00.006+08:00

replies to tags

(sorry for taking too long,
don't know if it's still relevant.
but yeahhhh .)
:))

SHAHIDAH : linked,yang tak budak kecik.:)
JUJU : relinked babe !
FARLINI : relinked babe !
PB : it was fine all along i think ?
just that need to use mozilla instead of ie yeahh.:)
ZAFFY : you know me well,pinoyy !
ily ahh dogggg !
FAISAL : hey hello !:)
ELA : i know ahh babe.i cats liao lohh nw.hurhur
SYAHIRA : linked babe !
&& i'm stl giving it some thought ahh.
2 major failures is too much liao ahhhh.
TTAQIN H.: hey hey,linked !
REENA : hey hello there,i hope i gt the right one you're refering to.
if it is,it's from miss selfridge bahs.:)
READER : hey hello there,so sorry horr.
i used to have one.
but since i'm very unmotivated(lazy+++),
i've stopped doing so ahh.
perhaps,soooonnehh yeahh !
:))
LIAH : heh,i'm stl working at vivo lohh.hurhur
LISSAA : hey hello there,which black top yeahh babe ?:))
NURUL : hah,the maxi dress you mean ahh babe ?
or what yeahh ?
heh,yeahhh,am recovering frm the sunburns i think ?
but i look like a penyakit girl now lohh.
hurhur
:DDD
HEY : haha !yeahh,got to agree with you with the part that i'm nt pretty.
but i shall just take that as a compliment,no ?
:)))

today is a sleep-in saturday.
damn tired from yesterday with the girls&boys.
will update more soooonnehh !

on a random note,i think i'll only treasure someone when they are gone.
it sucks to know that but it keeps on happening.
how i wish i was stronger than this.

till then ;

2009-08-07T01:43:00.010+08:00

and please,

the point of me saying that was
because my wardrobe consists of mostly rather-exposed tops.
i'm not trying to be funny here.
i think you are.
cause you are making fun of my dilemma.
thanks a lot for making me feel shitty.
like i need it.

in no mood to argue with people.
i feel very empty now.
though i have the care&concern from my loved ones,
i feel as if i'm still alone in this.
me against the world.

how i wish i could feel sorry for myself.
but i just can't.
i'm having mixed feelings about this.
i can barely think straight.
the more i talk,the more contradicting i'll sound.
i don't see this coming.
but i think this is it.

but apart from this,
i would love to only be the sweetest memories.
cause that's practically the only thing i think i'm capable of.
i'm clueless.
clueless about what i am/want now.
me hate it.

but imyt.

2009-08-04T09:02:00.010+08:00

FUN AT WORK.
these two are my happy pills at work.
like serioussslyyy !
i'm like their little sister bahs.
little lahhh sangatttsss horr.
:))))

&&& oh yeahh,
thanks for the text messages,friends.
my skin seems to be better now,i think(??).
but aiyahh !
no more of my 'barely-there' cleavage for now.
boringgg nehh !

kepada sisiapa yang terasa,
gambar nya tolong diuploadsikan yeahhh.
&&&&&&&&

HAPPY PRESENTING YOUR PRESENTATIONS,
PINOY !

2009-08-01T15:29:00.002+08:00

i hope i'm just being paranoid.
but what i see is what i think it is.
after the two days i went tanning,
i've realized that i've developed this mole-like thingy at
the area between my neck and my chest area.
i've done some research about it.
it's called basal cell carcinoma.
some case of skin cancer.
i think i might just be positive for it.
i shall go to see a doctor one of these days.
but i'm really scared.
seriouslyyyyyy !

god,please tell me that i'm wrong.

2009-08-01T03:22:00.000+08:00

thank you so much for making me realize that
i should be appreciative of those who love me.

you bore me.
you are just like the others,
nothing near special.

&&&on a more serious note,
i'm having doubts whether to apply for tp's october intake.
mother has been talking about my future a lot lately.
and she's laying out the possible routes i can take.
after two major failures in life,
i have doubts to whether i can really finish my education.
but perhaps,i might just want to take the most difficult way out.
and i think i'm one who is afraid of success.
very very very afraid.

2009-07-31T02:18:00.002+08:00

fyi,picture was not edited.
face like cb.
skin lagi like cb.
the effects of feeling tanning ahh.
tanning lah sangaatttt !
now,i look like one half-cooked prawn.
cause only my front is burnt.
but for my back,still as fair lohh.
bloooodyyy fooooooll !

how much i would love to pen my feelings on this page,
i'm too tired.
too lazy.
too unmotivated.
&&&& i'm left with 3% of photo space only lehhh.
got such things mehhh ?
so weird lohh !

on a random note,sometimes,
i can't decipher what these guys are thinking.
it's just too intricate.
but just like us,women,
we are all complicated creatures horr.
:)))

i'm rather delighted about something.
i've never see it coming.
and so,i'm having mixed feelings now.
why now ?

till we meet again.

till then ;

2009-07-17T13:03:00.053+08:00

&&& this is noted to be a 'pictures heavy' post.

if you have anything against pictures posted,
you are obliged to leave.
thank you.
:))

this post is a compilation of pictures taken for the past few weeks.
i couldn't care less which ever pictures came first.

but all in all,i had my best & worst days in those weeks.

&&& oh yeahh,
about what i want to do with my hair,
i've decided to just let it be.
till after raya celebrations perhaps ?
:DD

on a random note,i think i'm missing something in life.
neither can i feel nor know what it is.
i'm still in vain to find true happiness in life.
:))

sometimes,i think i scare myself too much.

i think i've exhausted this little space.
this little space has come this far.
will be giving this little space a rest for quite some time.
am very t i r e d.
in the meantime,take good care of yourself yeahhhh.
:))

till then ;

2009-06-29T02:27:00.008+08:00

I ADORE VANESSA HUDGENS !
and so,that somewhat explains my hairstyle.
but i have the strongest urge to change my hairstyle and colour.
the curly-long hairstyle has been with me for 2years on&off.
and so,i'm bored with it and need a change of hairstyle !
like seriously lohhh !
but from this........

to this......!

i'm in love with their hair colour.
but i'm just toooooo timid to do so.
won't it be too much ?
i'm afraid that my hair will get damaged and the biggest concern is
that it won't suits me.
and there'll be a few major things i need to think about.
like a wardrobe makeover
&&& skin tone.

dilemma dilemma dilemma !

2009-06-22T14:14:00.001+08:00

25 June 2009

&&& this is noted to be a 'pictures heavy' post.
if you have anything against pictures posted,
you are obliged to leave.
thank you.
:)))

supposed to have a movie date with the boy.
but since he got his friend's legalization of marriage
or better none as,pernikahan,
we postponed it to another day bahs.
and so,i'm back at home.
spent time rummaging my wardrobe,again.
&&& this dearest of mine chatted with me while she's at school just now.
i sooooo look like one monkey horr !
imy,dearest.
:)))

till then ;

24 June 2009

i've been spending quality time with my bacin.
right,tetek ?
:DDD

initial plan was to shop,shop till we drop.
drop we did,but nothing was bought.
except....
you know i know ahh,bacin.
hahahah !
we met at town at about 5plus.
walked around from taka to wisma to far east plaza.

took a bus and headed to plaza singapura to find some stuffs.
got tired and got ourselves dinner over at kfc.
joked,laughed&more laughters.
like nobody's business sia.
people kept looking at us from the time
we kept smacking each other at far east plaza lohh !
perangai like small kids siaaa !
:DDD

i look like one lioness horrr !
i'm so gonna take my extensions out sooonnehh !
:))

home sweet home at about 10pm.
:))

till then ;

21 June 2009

i hate it when it's that time of the month.
everything's just not right horrrr !
met mother after work.
and seriously,i think i might be a little 'over the top' for this sunday.
cause my paternal side all like religious2 the kind lohhh.
hurhurhur
:((

&&& i had a tiff with mother recently.
over something really stupid.
we are doing good now.
just that we don't talk about that matter anymore.
........

till then ;

22 June 2009

worked.
met the bacin for dinner at tong sen's.
walked from bugis to town.
got really tired by the time we reached cineleisure.
and so,we got some drinks from gloria jean's and slacked.
slacked bo slacked.
talked bo talked.
and went back home at about 10plus.
we are planning to go to town again since we didn't got the chance to shop.
no time !
:)))

&&& 'hello cik kak,i love smacking your back !'
i likeee !
hahahaaa !

reached back home.
and at about 2am-ish,we were chatting.
i told her i'm listening to music,
and she told me she's dressing up.
and then apa lagi horrr,
we webcam-ed,
wore bikinis,
danced like nodody's business.
so wacky so wacky !
nothing better to do horrrr !
:PPP

till then ;

20 June 2009

met mother after work.
rushed back home.
slacked.
got ready to meet the boy.
initial time to meet was at 7.
at last,met him at 8pm.
hehehee !
headed to sentosa for the beach party thingy.
but sadly,i left my camera in the locker instead.
no pictures were taken.
what i took along with me was a fan instead.
how silly rightt ???
:(((

&& boy,you got me to cloud nine.
i'm really happy when i'm with you.
:)))

till then ;

18 June 2009

woke up and we both rushed to work.
grandfather was kind enough to pack us lunchboxes.
the best !
:)))

worked.
met the boy after work.
went over to tong sen's to have dinner together.
walked to city hall and headed to esplanade to chill.
at about 10pm,we headed home.

till then ;

17 June 2009

had a pretty last minute plan to club.
and so,it was me&dearest.
but heh,we went back damn early horr.
i was feeling very uneasy each time i dance.
left dearest at the podium while i rested.
i wasn't feeling too well ahhhhh.
went back at about 2plus ahh.
:)))

reached back home and had our girly talks with tanter.
and at last,we slept at about 5plus.
hurhurhur
:))))

till then ;

2009-06-20T03:12:00.003+08:00

will be having a stall(basement),glassroom on the 27th.
do come&support us !
hopefully,this is going to work out this time round yeahh.
:))

2009-06-17T10:28:00.055+08:00

16 June 2009

today marks the 8th year grandmother left us.

they didn't have any kenduri for her this year.

just cook some food and send it to the mosque.

i do miss her,

and i know dearest does too.

i could still remember the night before she left us.

and that makes me reminsce the memories of the old house back at aljunied.

though it's a small and crampy house,

it's the house that mother&her siblings grew up in.

and that sure brings back a lot of memories.

the playground,cycling,ice-creams,tamiya,aunt janet,etc..

and you,my dearest grandmother,

is what we called the pillar to a more happy family.

but i can't say much for what had happened now.

and that reminds me.

my paternal uncle is getting married sooonnehh.

and i can't imagine myself sitting around with my paternal side.

cause we aren't even close in the first place.

will i have a good time ?

i doubt so.

tuition-ed.

went to meet zaffy at pasir ris interchange at about 1plus.

initial meeting time : 12pm.

but that wasn't the worst.

given that zaffy came from the west side,

we met at a time that's rather reasonable.

but the guys ahhhh,

aiyoyyohhhh !

we waited&waited.

we were so famished horrr !

and at last at about 2plus,kamal came.

then it was fee,

then,hadi&akmal.
hurhurhur

once all've reached,

we went over to kfc to have our lunch.

and by then,i had to go to head for work.

and the rest went ahead with their plans.

:))

on a random note,i could feel the fats forming on my skin.

it feels horrible but heh,

happpyyy mahhh !

till then ;

15 June 2009

tuition-ed.

met the joker after his work.

went to airport.

frm T3 to T2 to T1,

back to T2 to T3.

just to find his doughnut.

gave up and headed for raffles city's jnco.

after we had the doughnuts,

went over to macs since i was still famished.

mcspicy meal,upsized.

hmmmmm !

and that,i ate alone while he made flowers using the serviettes.

like macam perangai orang gemuksss horrr.

:)))

and boy,you fly me to the moon.

till then ;

2009-06-15T10:20:00.000+08:00

Tell me when will you be mine.

Tell me quando quando quando.

We can share a love divine.

Please don't make me wait again.

When will you say yes to me.

Tell me quando quando quando.

You mean happiness to me.

Oh my love please tell me when.

Every moments a day.

Every day seems a lifetime.

Let me show you the way.

To a joy beyond compare.

I can't wait a moment more.

Tell me quando quando quando.

Say its me that you adore.

And then darling tell me when.

Every moments a day.

Every day seems a lifetime.

Let me show you the way.

To a joy beyond compare.

I can't wait a moment more.

Tell me quando quando quando.

Say its me that you adore.

And then darling tell me when.

Oh my darling tell me when.

And then darling tell me when.

Oh my darling tell me when.

Oooooh ooooh oooh weeeeoooeoeoe

2009-06-13T23:24:00.000+08:00

&&& this is noted to be a 'pictures heavy'post,

if you have anything against pictures posted,

you are obliged to leave.

thank you.

:))))

19 June 2009

met the bacin at town at about 9pm.

had our dinner at cineleisure before heading to clarke quay.

it was rebel/zirca for tonight.

though i was paranoid about rebel due to a very bad experience back then,

i went ahead.

good thing,they had the lockers system now.

and so,it was rather mundane at first.

but it picked after soon after.

i had fun,afterall.

cause i'm partying with my best what ahhh.

:)))

these guys seriously reminded us,especially zaffy about the go4.

so much like them horrrr.

:)))

party ended at 430am.

had macs.

feet got tired.

slept on our way back home to zaffy's place.

literally slept i tell you,we took the seats at the back of the bus,

and laid our bodies.

till when we woke up,the bus's lights were off and that we were the last ones.

paisehh lohh cann !

reached zaffy's place,

changed clothes and crashed.

damn tired lohhh !

till then ;

10 June 2009

initially,it was supposed to be the three of us.

but i didn't know what happened,neither do i want to know.

and so,met this bacin of mine after work.

waited for efa for awhile before we headed to powerhouse.

all in all,it was a night well spent.

but my,after two months of not clubbing,

my body was seriously aching after that night lohh !

cb one horrrr.

:))

it ended at 5am.

went to have breakfast cum supper at seah im hawker centre

before proceeding back home.

'do i look young&fresh&vibrant.'

h.a.h.a

till then ;

2009-06-09T02:30:00.002+08:00

&&& this is noted to be a 'pictures heavy' post.
if you have anything against pictures posted,
you are obliged to leave.
thank you.
:)))

8 June 2009

had work.
did some shopping alone after work.
went to meet a friend for dinner.
went back home with dearest&bf.
and at last,i met this dearest of mine.

cause apparently,we texted each other recently over some issues.
whatever we've done towards each other,
i still love you still.
:)))))

on a random note,we've been having quite a
heart-to-heart conversation these past few nights.
part of me is saying yes,
another part of is a definite no.
i'm feeling his fear that we might lose contact in the near future.
as much as i do not want it to happen,
past experiences have taught me quite a bit what a future i have with guys.
long term dating but nothing.
that's the furthest i can go.
for now,i'm just going with the flow.
:)

till then ;

7 June 2009

woke up extremely early to tutor.
then off to lot1,
wanted to meet this baby of mine,but she wasn't in.
so anyways,headed to republic polytechnic to attend the 'dikir' competition.
so unlike me,i knowww.
but it's really an eye-opener.
initial plan was to head to airport after the competition.
but since it ended rather late,we just went to the 'teh tarik' coffee shop
to have dinner with his group mates.
:)

when it was just an introduction.

till then ;

6 June 2009

had tuition.
was damn sleepy.
but made my way to grandfather's place to meet mother,aunt&fiqah.
had a short nap before we headed to the airport to accompany
the little one to watch 'dora the explorer'.
my purpose of accompanying her was to take care of her.
but my,
damn sleeeppppyy lohh !
but anyways,we had quality time together
and had dinner at popeye's.

5 June 2009

worked.
met family for dinner at simpang bedok.
it has been quite some time since we had dinner together.
and so,since it was azri's birthday,
we made it a point to have dinner together.
:)

we were trying to check out our weight.
when afiq went on first,it showed 5kg only.
and so,we thought it was spoilt.
but my,when it was azri's turn,
it went fast to hit 70++ kg.
and when it came to my turn,
let's just say i'm planning on losing some weight.
hurhurhurhur
:((((

till then ;

4 June 2009

midnight striked.
and we woke the birthday boy up to cut his cake.
it's my younger brother,azri's 15th birthday.
may you be blessed with health&happiness.
how annoying you can be at times,
i do love you,brother.
:)

when boredom strikes after work.
................

colleague : you at this age already wear like this.
wait i want to imagine ahh what you wear when you older ahh.
gossip girls ke,sex in the city ke...,desperate housewives ke......,
me : ahhhh,island shop ke.....
colleague : ( LOL ) ,island shop tak perlu ahhhh.
:)))

i wonder,
i wonder,
i wonder what will become of us.

till then ;

2009-06-04T01:03:00.002+08:00

i just kinda reach home from meeting the crazy girl.
just so you know,you can count on me,
anytime.
even if it's ice cream at 2 in the morning horrr.
you know i know.
:)))

on a random note,the joker surprisingly came by my workplace.
he accompanied me through my break.
and i'm meeting this joker again this saturday.
hehee !

but you know what ?
i'm rather confused.
someone's face is bugging me.
it's like a drug.
i know it's lethal,
but i still want it.
...................................................

:))))

till then ;

2009-06-02T22:13:00.011+08:00

life's been rather mundane these days.
it's either work,tuition or just slacking at home.
and i've been doing loads of thinking.
i think i'll go ahead&just do it.
:)))

anyways,saturday was supposed to be having dinner-cum-movie
in the later part of the day.
but something did happened.
and so,headed to ikea with the boy.
supposed to go tanning with bacin.
but cb horr,she woke up at 1pm.
and me ?
2pm.
baiksssss !
:))

on our way back home,this boy slept.
i was happy snapping pictures till i fell asleep too.
seriously tired from all the walk at ikea ahhhh.
:)

and this brother of mine is away for 4days.
he'll be back and we'll be celebrating his 15th birthday this coming friday.
without him around,home is much quieter.
cause usually he's the one who makes big fuss about petty things.
talking about petty things,
we had some misunderstanding going on.
i'm hoping to meet you soon.
whatever it is,i miss you.
i love you from the bottom of my heart.
you know i know.
:DDD

on a lighter note,this was taken by mother a few days back.
though i have a room of my own
and they share a room,
this is how we sleep every day.
but usually i'll take the sofa.
cute isn't it ?
like hugging mother bear ahhh.
hehehehee !
:)

oh yeahh !
sesungguhnya sesiapa yang terasa,
i miss korangs lahhh !
:DDD

2009-05-28T00:30:00.037+08:00

i stumbled upon some old pictures from my previous blog
while trying to get more photo space for my blog.
and soo,
those kentals(more happier+less dramatic) days....
:))

till then ;

2009-05-26T22:40:00.001+08:00

25 May 2009

this bacin of mine called my house up and urged my brother to wake me up.
either for l4d or movie.
we met for lunch at ang mo kio and headed for bugis.
while in the bus on our way there,we had some girly talks on guys.
it was heart-warming.
:))

her newly-bought sandals hurt her feet and so,we exchanged our shoes.
we headed for haji lane.
and is it us or is it that 'house of japan' is closed for good ?
we walked by the walkway twice lohh !
hurhurhur
>.<

we got rather bored and just walked around arab street.
we got ourselves friendship bands bahs.
cute right ?
i know.
:DDD

and since we are getting older,
our stamina go downhill too.
like after a short span of time,we'll get tired easily.
and so,by about 6pm,
we headed for home.
so much of watching movie and all horr.
had a great time with you,breast friend.
:)))

till then ;

24 May 2009

planned to meet my friend,sammy at city hall at 5pm.
but i wanted it to be at 6pm.
at last,i arrived at 7pm.
janji melayu horr.
:))

we went to play two rounds of bowling.
yeahh yeahhh,
you won this time round yeahh.
but we were both damn hungry mahh.
meaning,
no food = no energy.
better luck next time !
:)

after having our dinner at kfc,
we went over to starbucks to chill.
and talking about that,i think i've been putting a lot of weight.
thanks to kfc,and a whole list of fast food you can name.
even now,mother says my thighs resemble the chicken's thighs.
:((((

after some time,we headed to esplanade.
for more chilling session and of course,
camwhoring.
:)))

on this note,i think i'm loving my wedges.
it makes me feel tall,you know.
cause as you can see,i'm a short fart.
:DDD

&&& i love my brothers very much.
but i'm a selfish person,you know.
i hate it when i see them both get real close.
then leave me alone.
like whaaat only horr.
but then again,i hate it when they bug me.
damn irrits !
:))

till then ;

2009-05-23T22:23:00.003+08:00

&&& this is noted to be a 'pictures heavy' post.

if you have anything against pictures posted,

you are obliged to leave.

thank you.

:DDD

initial plans were that zaffy&i must wake each other up at 9am.

we've planned to go suntanning together.

and meet efaji after her work.

but since we all came back late,we ditched it.

and the bacin texted something.

but heh,last minute sangat horr !

next week ciaozzzz !

on a random note,i've just had a conversation with the joker.

i think i'm ready but i'm not.

in actual fact,i don't know what i want.

what a life !

till then ;

22 May 2009

had tuition.

initial plan was to meet my womans.

but,efaji slept through&through horr.

anyways,met zaffy at about 6plus.

walked around,shopped abit,

met the joker at about 7plus.

had dinner together,walked around.

at about 10,zaffy went back home.

before that,zaffy had received a text that the guys wanted to go out.

and so,with the company of the joker,

i waited for efaji till midnight.

he went off,

and efaji&i walked to wheelock to wait for the rest.

the boys came at about 1am.

and we had to wait for zaffy&kamal.

2am horrrrr !

once they reached,

we headed to labrador park.

slacked.

and about 4,we went off to send each of us girls back home.

such a short meet-up horrr !

by the time,we were on the expressway,i was already dozing off siaa.

cialakkk !

home sweet home at almost 6am.

&&& i did asked for my parents' permission to go out with them.

cause usually,i don't.

but i'm trying my best to be a better daugther mahh.

macam fahamssss !

:DDD

till then ;

21 May 2009

met dearest after work.

wanted to head for tuition,but we ditched it to have dinner together at tampines.

had catch-ups and loads of laughters.

the ones in the bus were damn funnnehh horr !

:))))

20 May 2009

work,work,work.

good thing i'll have four days off.

till then ;

2009-05-21T00:45:00.015+08:00

&&& this is noted to be a 'pictures heavy' post.

if you have anything against pictures posted,

you are obliged to leave.

thank you.

:)))

18 May 2009

met with dearest.

accompany her to her school.

had my brunch there and headed back to tampines central.

was supposed to meet a friend at town.

but since the joker ends work at 6.30pm,

met him and we headed to town.

slacked around and just enjoy each other's company.

back home at about 9plus since we were both tired.

&&& my oh my,i saw someone i'm not supposed to see.

hurhurhur

>.<

till then ;

17 May 2009

met with the crazy girl after we ended our work at 5pm.

met her at marina square,walked around,

and had dinner.

we went over to raffles city's miss selfridge.

since there weren't any customers,we played dress up.

and when i think back,raffles city's miss selfridge is the place where we both first met.

how sweeet kann ?
:)))

&&& i super love the maxi dress can ?

i thought i told myself maxis are over for me.

but i think it's coming back.

:)))

till then ;

16 May 2009

text messages from mother :

'keep up with yr gd attitude but there is still rm 4 improvement.'

i swear it was so random lohhh !

got it while i was working.

and so,my reply was,

'hahah,you very randoms horr.i love you.'

her reply ?

'i just hope u continue with yr studies so that u will not regret later in life.'

when that hit back,i was speechless.

like i'm not too sure what i want in life actually.

and so,no reply from me.

................

we had a good talk afterwards back at home.

:)))

till then ;

2009-05-19T19:43:00.002+08:00

someone texted me.

saying he had just dedicated a song to me on the radio.

asking why he did what he did.

'because i miss you.'

and told you i was not supposed to meet someone right ?

and true enough,

was asked for an explanation to what he had saw that night.

apparently,it was just me&a guy friend in a train.

sometimes,i don't understand guys.

and i know at times,they don't understand me too.

2009-05-18T22:26:00.003+08:00

i know myself best.
i perceived myself as something raunchy/slutty,you name it,on the internet.
but like i say,i know myself best.
and i know how hard.many times i explain myself,
these hate taggers will still keep coming back.
i shall just leave it as it is.
but last thing,get your facts right,
i wasn't from rp.
typo error or not,
i was from ngee ann polytechnic.

i respect your decision to hate tag me.
but please,try harder next time.
cause it ain't working here.
:DD

have a great day ahead people !
:)))

till then ;

2009-05-18T12:17:00.005+08:00

it's funnehh isn't it ?
when people thinks you have
bigger/smaller eyes,
thick/thin lips,
long/short legs,
or best,
big/small breast.
or better,
firm/not firm breast.
:)

in my opinion,i think the case of physical appearance is so superficial.

that all these things doesn't maketh a man.
but reality check,it is really happening in this world.
sad case isn't it ?

and on a lighter note,i think i have one new talent now.
to make different faces.
not only those silly faces,
but hey,
i can do a slut face now.
beat that !
:DD

i was chatting with dearest.
i told her 'you want to talk to me mehh ?'
'i malay idiot,you know.'
she went 'haha,kekek or what seyy.'
:))))

so seriously girl,i think you got the wrong person to mess with.
if your motives were to bring me down,
tell you what.
i'm not the very bit affected by it.
thanks for dropping by anyways.
:)

2009-05-15T14:57:00.010+08:00

it's been long since i camwhored in my room.

and so,i did it yester-night.

i've just finished my second book and had nothing better to do.

and fcuk,i'm still trying to find my flower.

i want to wear it on my hair tomorrowwww !!!!

hurhurhur

>.<

on a random note,i was rather pissed when a guy chatted with me recently.

said he wants to hold my hand around town.

asked why so,and he said he wants to show me off.

like wtfff ?!

partly i guess it's how i imposed myself on the net.

but hello,where's the respect ?

that's why i said i want real man.

talking about that,someone called me recently.

got my new number from mother.

it was so nerve-wrecking that i had the call end as fast as possible.

wthh !

&&&& dearest was so cuteee !

she texted me a something very random horr.

you know i know.

i love you from the bottom of my heart.

:))))

i've been a good girl,

going back straight&all.

trying my best lohh !

but heh,temptationss !

got to go now !

mother's calling me.

'gemmmmukkkk !makan dah siap'

so irrits cannnn !

hahaha !

have a great weekend people !

:DD

till then ;

2009-05-13T07:32:00.003+08:00

my body is aching so bad now.

i think i'm going to get the flu.

it sucks lohhhh !

headed to town yesterday with joker&faizal.

had dinner and slacked for abit.

&&& i'm thinking whether or not i should be meeting my old friend tonight.

cause i'm going to be free only after 9pm.

in case i haven't told you,i got a curfew now.

apparently,father bought a padlock recently and only he has the keys to it.

if i reached home after midnight,i'll be locked out.

macam cinderalla ehh.

damn kanasaiiii one lohhhh !

hurhurhurhur

and at last,i'm making this public again.

perhaps&maybe perhaps,i'm thinking of making it private 'permanently'.

will see yeahhh.

:)))

till then ;

2009-05-11T20:55:00.003+08:00

was supposed to watch movie with family.

but then,i slept once i reached back home from tuition.

was damn shagged i tell you !

and so,all perangai kebabi-an,

cancelled it.

on a random note,i wonder when/where can i ever find my one true love.

cause i'm quite done with this game.

i miss cuddling with a person i really care for.

i miss being missed by someone who have strong real feelings for me.

i miss being in love.

but please,i need/want someone real.

so randomssss !

hehehee !

:))

and i'm chatting with an old friend cum ex-beau.

it was funnehh lohhh !

'we shall see which one of us,school drop-outs,
will be more successful'.

it was really a pleasure to get back to some old friends.

cause nowadays,i feel some friends are fair-weathered.

they come and go as and when they want to.

they come to you only when they need help or have fun with.

and at times,i feel the same way towards some friends too.

don't you think you are too ?

and oh yeahh,i totally miss parties !

but it's no longer a need/temptation to go often.

but i just miss the feeling of trying to get your space to dance,

dancing on the podium,

seeing people get drunk&wasted.

and just have pure fun.

perhaps,sooonnnehh yeahhh.

:)))

till then ;